i've been seeking for stuff which'd be the clincher

Following through to complete my songs is heart so much,but i ain't have clue to just get a bigbreak...

Uploading my crossdressing stuff,Practicing violin and vocal,composing,eating dish,going to bed,walking down the street and stuff like that...it's my real life,however,I just suffer from an ogre wearing mask,and which could be called impatience,or somehow sorrow,or somehow solitude,or...restlessness...

I AM LIVING SCRATCHING LIFE
AM ALWAYS OUT OF PLACE
YOU CAN'T PULL THE WALL OVER MY EYES

MUSIC,LIFE,LAST....THOSE ARE TOO MUCH FOR WORDS...